Cus I'm Broken~Drew/Brandon/Anyone Invited

[Bianca DeSousa]

Hung over, sore and numb, that was what she woke up like this morning and she turned over to find Brandon in her bed and she had nudged him awake before she took her morning shower and got dressed and ready for school. She walked in silence with Brandon the whole way as she tried to ignore the urges to hurl and she was relieved when they reached the school building. She walked to her locker and shoved everything unneeded into it and she grabbed her books for her first few classes and she procceeded to go to class needing to be on time. She sat through her first few classes, her focus not on anything the teachers were saying or writing, her focus was on how sick she felt and her thoughts were a million miles away. Finally it was her free period and she walked outside and she sat on the steps as she looked out onto the parking lot and then over to the basketball hoops. She smiled halfly to herself at memories of watching Drew play basketball and how competitive he could get and the few times he had shown her how to throw good baskets. She sighed and looked down twirling a lock of her hair as she let her eyes scan over the notebook in her lap and she flipped it open and aimlessly looked through some of the pages, some had old notes written in them from her and Drew writing back in forth sitting next to each other in classes awhile back, it all seemed so far away and out of reach now.

She slammed the notebook shut and she got to her feet and walked over toward the basketball hoops grabbing a stray ball off the court and she looked around not seeing much of anyone else. She brought the ball to her chest positioning her hands as she threw it now and it bounced off the backboard and didn't make it in. She tried again, and it did the same thing, she tried a third time and again it hit off the backboard and bounced back to her. She grabbed the ball and bounced it hard before she growled and as it came down she kicked it at the fence and listened to the fence rattle before she stormed back to the stairs and sat back down,"Stupid ball,"

[/color] she muttered as she shook her head and she took in a deep breath and tried to calm herself as best she could, but nothing was seeming to work. She groaned as she wrapped her arms around her torso, her stomach turning and she didn't know if it was the hangover that was making her sick anymore or her own misery. she'd kill to see him smile, genuinely smile... and part of her even told herself even if the smile wasn't for her, just to see him smile was all she wanted...but how?[/center]

[Brandon Delvecchio]

The night before, he had a lot of trouble sleeping, alot was on his mind. Why did he just sleep with Bianca, he had more morals then that, but something allowed him to and what ever it was kept him awake all night. He had just started to drift off, when Bianca nudged him out of a pre-sleep. Brandon sat up looking under the blankets, it wasn't a dream. In his mind he was begining to wish it was. The walk to school was hell, why did he feel like he did something wrong? As if he didn't know Bianca was trying to kill her feelings for Drew sleeping with him. He arrived at school and when he broke from Bianca he walked down the halls fast. He went to his locker, gathering stuff for his class. He was a little sick from the night before but that wasn't what was on his mind at all. He went through his first few classes dazing off out the window, even Math was foreign to him at this point and he was in a senior math class. Brandon gave himself anxiety, he was a bit shaky and felt like all eyes were on him, he didn't like feeling comfortable and on his lunch break he skipped and went into the bathroom sitting in the stall calming his mind from going onto an over load of mania. He didn't sleep there was no reason for him to be this energized, and anxious. Brandon heard the bell ring but he didn't budge he actually nodded out on the toilet for a couple classes. He heard a few boys talking and he chewed the inside of his cheek pulling out his phone checking for the time. Brandon sighed and walked out passing the talking boys, not caring about what they had to say, he just wanted to get out of school, and leave, run run run.

Brandon decided he couldn't take it anymore, he went to his locker and grabbed his pack and walked out the door walking down the school steps where he saw Bianca, he was leaving school. He wasn't going back to Bianca's either. Brandon debated if he wanted to say anything to her and then he watched Miss Torres pull up to the stairs, Drew got out of the car, he must have woke up late from his hangover, but as his mother vowed he was going to school. Brandon looked at him, and then a helpless Bianca. "You look so helpless.... now Romeo can make it all better." Brandon said sarcastically as he walked by Bianca down the stairs and progressed down the street walking past Drew throwing off an attitude in his step. Brandon was fed up. Drew ran his fingers through his hair a little confused, he wasn't sure what that kids problem was but he shrugged it off, his head pounded too much to worry. He waved his mother goodbye and looked at Bianca on the stairs and his lips tried to form a smile but he shook it off and looked down at his feet shoving his hands into his pockets walking by her into Degrassi.

[Bianca DeSousa]

She looked up at Brandon's words and she narrowed her eyes abit at Drew's look of confusion as if he didn't know that things were miserable with her and she got to her feet and stormed passed Drew and rushed after Brandon passing him and sliding to a hault infront of him as she took him by the shoulders with her hands and she looked him dead in the eyes,"Slow down there speedracer ok, Brandon I'm sorry ok, i seem to be doing alot of apologizing lately but I mean this to you ok, I am sorry,"

[/color] she said as she kept her ground stood and she kept her eyes locked with his her eyes showing the slightest bit of emotion that she did know she had hurt him and it wasn't right,"I took advantage of you and your kindness and I'm sorry, you're a really nice guy and you don't deserve that, but I don't want you running off please, please don't leave, please come back to my house with me after school, I'll make you dinner, we'll talk, I can't lose you too Brandon, you're..." Bianca didn't have many people she considered to be good friends to her but this boy really probably was her best friend,"You're my best friend Brandon...please, I'm sorry i let you down, I made a mistake and I just, I need to try and get this numb feeling to go away and I know you have advice on these things and I trust you..." she muttered as she slowly dropped her hands from his shoulders and she brought one of her hands up and stuck the tip of her thumb behind her top teeth as she looked at him, she couldn't lose him, even though they had only just got to know each other, she felt really close to him and she needed someone like him that she could trust and talk to and confide in.[/center]

[Brandon Delvecchio]

Brandon looked into Bianca's eyes, and normally he was really quite assholeish and unsympathetic when hurt. Something inside, let him hear her out though, he knew she was going through a lot, and most of the things she was going through were new to her. No he couldn't say for sure he knew every detail but he was a good friend and she tried to keep her spirits, high. He just didn't like being... "Bianca, you know how you refuse to be Drew's second choice, well I felt that like after last night, like I was your second choice, a rebound and I don't trust people, nor to I accept help and hand outs but I do for you." Brandon said looking down, maybe he had a little crush on Bianca but he looked to her as a best friend first always. "Because I like to be around you." Brandon said looking down a bit, now he was swallowing his own pride, he had been through a lot in his past and he wasn't scared of anything but losing people, and his own self. Brandon looked back at Bianca. "I never let people get close and when they do, I get scared, I'd lose them, I've lost a lot of people some for better some for worst but I can't lose you, I can't also feel like my feelings don't matter." Brandon explained as he took her hand in his, what the heck was he thinking he he walked her back to school now, they could both finish out their days in class and then do something. "I have a compromise." Brandon said stopping pulling out his wallet, he looked in there looking at a wad of cash he had made from playing. "I want to take you out tonight, as friends maybe to the club, I got a fake I.D but before that let's go out for dinner, I'm feelin Italian, don't get me wrong your Spanish food is bomb but I don't want to stay in tonight, just have a night with my bestie." He said putting his arm around Bianca walking up the stairs to the school. "One catch, no depression, no broken feelin, don't even think about him. Deal?" Brandon said it was the only way he was going to forgive her, plus a night out, of fun could make her feel a whole lot better.

[Bianca DeSousa]

She listened to him and she felt horrible for making him feel the way she didn't like to feel and when he took her hand she reluctantly followed him back to school and listened as he explained a compromise. It would be hard for her to swallow her pride and just push Drew out of her mind but she knew she had to if she wanted to keep her friend. She watched her feet now as they walked down the hall and she nodded abit,"Ok, I'll try my best," she said softly as she looked up when they entered the building and she happened to catch sight of Drew and at that, she looked at Brandon instead,"Do you really want to go to the club though?"

[/color] she asked, the last time she went to the club was when Katie pulled her bullshit stunt and Bianca hadn't liked that very much, but if Brandon wanted to go she'd suck it up and go,"I mean... ok wherever you wanna go just meet me after school ok?"[/color] she said as she slipped out from his arm and she looked at her phone for the time, she had to get to her next class...a class she had with Drew. She sighed and kissed Brandon's cheek before she rushed toward her English class and when she walked in she saw Drew in the back of the room probably trying to avoid the teacher noticing his hangover. She glanced around and scowled when she had no other choice but to sit in the back next to him by the window. She slid into her seat and she placed her notebook on the desk as she glanced out the window in a daze, there was no need to say anything to him and that was by his choice not hers at this point as she crossed her legs and tapped her nails on her desk, she shifted and her notebook fell on the floor right at his feet. She looked over and reached down grabbing it and looking at the page it fell open on and she quickly closed it and sat back up putting it back on her desk drowning out the teacher and continuing her daze of looking out the window wondering how she would get through a night out with Brandon with trying to be happy.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Brandon thought for a moment, maybe the club wasn't a good idea, but he didn't what kind of stuff a girl like that liked. Brandon followed her eyes to Drew and put his finger in front of her eyes snapping. "Cut that out, and I'll think of something while I'm in the next classes I'm sure." Brandon said as he walked to his locker and and off to his next class. Drew had stopped at the nurses office, he asked for an Advil, and he decided to be his normal flirty, charming self. Drew sat there for a good twenty minutes letting the pain reducer kick in and with five minutes before English it kicked in just on time. Drew made his way to his locker grabbing his books for his couple classes then walked to English he strolled into the class room taking his seat and he opened his note book looking up at the board. He was disrupted by the sound of a notebook hitting the floor and reflexively he bent down putting his hand over Bianca's looking at her then he pulled his hand away and sat back up running his fingers through his hair. It was going to be harder to block out Bianca then he thought but it needed to be done he guessed. Drew started his assignment and he placed his elbow on his desk holding up his head yawning a bit. He was soon day dreaming, and he closed his eyes and breathed a bit deeply. His eyelids were heavy and he tried to open them but they didn't want to and then SLAM Drew jumped hearing a book placed hard on his desk. "No, not sleeping!" Drew recovered with without a question and he looked up to find his teacher with an unamused expression. "How you like to join the rest of the class Mr. Torres?" His teacher asked and he rubbed his eyes and stretched a little. "Yup ready." Drew answered doing his work, through being tired he looked over and Mirasol seemed to be talking to him. He got nervous, and now this was not okay. Drew smile nonchalantly and agreed to most of what she was saying and he looked around a bi uncomfortable now.

[Bianca DeSousa]

She had felt his hand on hers but luckily she had not been the only one to pull away as he did. Time seemed to go by so slow and she was snapped out of her daze at the same time Drew had been awoken and she looked over at him and scowled abit seeing him and Marisol talking. She waited for the bell to ring and as soon as it did she got up and practically shoved passed him out of the classroom and she stormed down the hall and to her locker finally ready to just leave as she shoved everything into her locker and she slammed it shut looking around almost helplessly as she stood by her locker, looking for Brandon, where the hell was he, she couldn't be here any more she'd go insane and drive herself into anxiety. She tapped her foot against the ground and folded her arms over her chest as she looked down breathing in shallow breaths to keep herself calm and she glanced up still not seeing him. She leaned against her locker now as she glanced over her shoulder seeing Drew and she shook her head looking back infront of herself finally seeing Brandon down the hall,"Come on Brandon," she urged and when he got close enough she grabbed his hand and practically dragged him outside and off of school property as fast as she could, heading home so that they could change and get ready for whatever it was they were going to do for the night.