This is Life without you (Katie&Ryder)

[Drew Torres]

Busted, caught red handed after everything he told Katie that night, after making love after everything. Drew couldn't sleep well after watching Katie so broken so he just took Bianca home. He was lost now and everything was eating away at him now. He slept with Adam, just to know someone would always be by his side made him comfortable enough to catch a couple hours. When he woke up he knew what he had to do, he quickly had breakfast, and then got dressed, heading to school. His anger level was high, he was unsure why Katie was even at the movies with Ryder out of all people. The kid seemed a little disturbed and he didn't like the way he talked to Lilli either. He caught a couple words exchanged from those two in the hall. When he arrived at school he went straight to Katie's locker. He had to talk to her, in losing her he felt like he was losing a piece of himself. He just stood there, thinking of what to say and he knew Katie wasn't going to be too thrilled to see him. There she was walking alone and when she got over to him he spoke. "Katie..I" Drew said that was all he could muster before she tried to deny him. He was getting a bit frustrated, due to her ability to talk over him so he put his hands on either side of her shoulders and pushed her against the locker, hearing her back hit it with impact. She looked down into her eyes pinning her there, she would listen. "Katie, look I know I screwed up." He managed to get about before she was talking again. "Oh really your not going to let me talk? What were you doing at the movies with Ryder anyways?" He asked he had to get accusing as well, he couldn't just live it down, and swallow all his pride no that was now how he worked. He looked over his shoulder seeing Ryder walk up and he loosened his grip on Katie's shoulders now really annoyed.

[Katie Matlin]

Issues, it seemed like she woke up every hour on the hour when she was simply trying to sleep but after a while she gave up. Katie got out of bed and hopped into the shower. She let the water run down her body and it soothed her from everything that had been happening. When she was done she got out and put some moose through her hair, making it wavy. She went back into her room, drying off before getting into her uniform but today she's wear a mini skirt. She slid on her uniform shirt, and she skirt with some knee high socks, and before she knew it she was driving to school. Right when she got there she saw him, as if he was waiting for her and she marched right up to him listening to his attempt to talk. But she couldn't allow that, she told Ryder she wouldn't make bag decisions that was what their argument was over anyways. "Drew Torres you have some nerve." She got out and pref she knew it her back was to her locker and she was being held aggressively. Katie knew his anger problems, she knew him better then a lot of people and she knew his pushing limit. "Drew, I am not dealing with this, your a cheater and a liar, you said you needed me, that I was special, you shouldn't need me you should want me, and I trusted you foolishly." She said feeling a bit stupid. When he switched everything up on her, her jaw dropped. "I was seeing a movie with a friend, and I had fun until you ruined everything!" She corrected she wasn't going to have him blame her but she had some confessions of her own. "Yeah, you know what I kissed him too, and I liked it he's someone trustworthy and sweet and you know I blamed myself for your cheating because I wasn't here and I had a problem and left you alone but you Drew. You had no right to hurt me like that after you..." She couldn't say it she couldn't say he took something special from her. Katie just looked away ashamed of herself now.

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[ryder]

Part of him wanted to talk to katie today and as he rolled out of bed he hopped in the shower and got dressed in his stupid uniform before heading to his car. he drove to school and almost immediately after he got out of his car a few of his little fangirls were already around him. he smiled at them and put his arm over one of the girl's shoulders as they all walked inside,"Ladies, Ladies, let me breathe please, I would love to listen to your concerns reguarding me but for now, please just go run along," he said. He dropped his arm from the girl and headed to his locker as he opened it. he sighed seeing a few pictures of him and Katie in the back and he slammed his locker closed, some friend... He scowled and had to take out his anger on someone and lucky for him, Lilli walked by,"Hey Lills, hows your pimp services working out for you?" he asked receiving a scowl and a middle finger from the little girl. He shoved her against the lockers and then stormed off. He was heading toward the exit, he didn't want to be here but something caught him out of the corner of his eye, Drew and Katie, Drew forcing her up against the lockers. he stormed over and shoved drew away from her,"Dude hands off, haven't you done enough emotional damage, you don't have to do physical damage too," he growled.

[Drew Torres]

Drew felt himself being shoved and reactivity he shoved Ryder back and raised his eyebrow. "You don't know anything, I wouldn't hurt her nor should I be explaining anything to you." Drew said and then he remembered Katie's earlier words. She kissed someone else and he was standing in front of him and he forced a smile shifting his eyes between Katie and Ryder then back to Katie. "I have some nerve? You left me Katie, you used my ex girlfriend to support your habit and you cheated on me as well, so don't point fingers, you can blame yourself." Drew said, his sarcastic smile fading with in his words. Two wrongs didn't make a right anytime and he knew this. Bianca was special to him, he would have been faithful if Katie didn't change the way she did before she left for rehab. Time with Katie was special, but he and Bianca had went through a lot as well and he was caught up in two love stories. Drew ruffled his hair, he didn't want to act like this effected him like it did, due to the fact that he couldn't find himself that wrong but this kid wasn't coming into the picture to rescue Katie from her own intentions. "Katie, I messed up and I did say I needed you and that had never changed but I can't just let you leave or allow you to end everything to be with someone else, someone like him." Drew said, he didn't like the kid, why would he after he took his girlfriend on a date and kissed her trying to play captain save a girl. "I'm sorry, and I love you." Drew said looking down into her eyes and he touched her cheek now caught up in his own mixed emotions.

[Katie Matlin]

Katie looked over at Ryder, she didn't expect him to stick up for her after last night but he did and she smiled and then looked at Drew and her smile faded. "Don't talk to him like that, he has part in my life so he can scold you how he wants." She corrected listening to him talk more, her jaw dropped now as well. "Blame myself, for trying to fix myself? Yeah, okay Drew and I did cheat on you but did you expect anything less?" Katie said, she wouldn't let Drew blame this all on her, and now she could feel it the tears were coming and she couldn't hold back, his way of speaking to her bothered her and now she wanted to walk away but she couldn't "You know someone like him what does that even mean? How can I allow myself to be with someone like you?" Katie said narrowing her own eyes and with his I love you she could feel herself break down and she sniffed looking into his eyes. "You love me? Funny, I didn't think you cheated on someone you 'love.'" Katie managed to saw as more tears left her eyes and she looked up at Ryder. She knew Drew's words must have bothered him as well. "I'm not leaving you to be with someone, I can't make someone feel the way you made me feel. I'm leaving you because I've had enough." She said looking right into Drew's eyes and she started to walk away watching her feet as she wanted. Her eyes a bit red from crying now.

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[ryder]

Wow Drew had some addocity to be speaking how he was. Ryder shook his head and folded his arms over his chest for a moment, unamused expression crossing his face and when he watched Drew try and tell Katie he loved her and blah blah blah, Ryder had enough. he let Katie speak but as soon as Katie turned to even just leave, Ryder unfolded his arms and in an instant he belted Drew right in the jaw and stepped back gesturing for him to come at him,"You want drama, I'll give you drama pretty boy" Ryder said as he scowled and he could hear some passerbys gasping and some whispering and others urging them to fight. Ryder didn't care if it could get him in trouble, nobody was going to talk to him like that, someone like him? Drew had no right to judge anyone, and on top of it talking to Katie like that and trying to fuck with the girl's head, she was already fucked in her head enough by herself,"I'm waiting," he urged.

[Drew Torres]

Drew listened to Katie, and he debated on going after her but he was stopped as he looked at Ryder. Was this kid seriously trying to instigate a fight? He could feel the anger stirring in of him. Everything Katie had taught him about angry fighting slipped his mind now. Drew could feel it, the trauma kicking in, the back of his mind but could he be the better person and ignore this urging. Drew's eyes shifted around looking at all the students, he couldn't back down, couldn't lose now but he watched Katie walk off and dump him like that what kind of boyfriend would he be if he didn't go after her to try to comfort her. He had been in trouble for fighting in school before so what was the difference now? He pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it to the ground, listening to the girls giggling over his half naked body. Drew scowled. "Your waiting?" Drew said moving a bit closer, he knew the rage he'd get. The way he couldn't stop when he was fighting the trauma that crossed his mind and he decided against it backing up picking up his shirt. He knew better then this, and Katie taught him better then this. Drew turned his back, putting his shirt back on, he'd kill that kid if he progressed in fighting. Too much MMA training, too much built up anger. He'd find Bianca and have her calm him down as he heard the whispers and Boos from the crowd as he walked away, he couldn't fight like that not in this mind set.

[ryder]

He was ready as he watched Drew take off his shirt and approach him but a moment later Drew stepped back. Ryder narrowed his eyes,"Don't think that you can just chase after her and she'll jump into your arms and it'll all be ok Torres, she's smarter than that!" he growled as he looked around at the staring kids now,"What the hell are you all looking at? Get your asses to class!"

[/color] he hollered watching them scramble. Among them, he saw her, Bianca standing by the lockers, a slightly amused look on her face, her arms folded over her chest and an eyebrow raised. She slowly pulled her hands from her her chest and slowly began to clap in a taunting manner,"Way to go...spectacular performance, i think even Mister Goldsworthy would have been impressed," she mused. Ryder had enough and she was part of the reason Katie was hurt. He was seeing red and he couldn't stop himself when he walked right up to her and grabbed her pretty little neck in his hand pinning her up against the lockers,"I'll be damned Bianca I'll snap your fucking neck you selfish bitch," he was in a state of mind where violence was the number one thing on his mind as he felt her hands come up to his hand around her neck. He chuckled and shook his head,"Your pathetic and so is your wanna be boyfriend,'[/color] he said tossing her to the floor. He watched the fury in her eyes as she got to her feet and he wondered if she'd do something about it, he wondered if anyone saw his flip out.[/center]

[Eli Goldsworthy]

He wasn't too happy with the way Ryder spoke to his little Lilli. But he wouldn't say anything and then Drew and Katie started to talk and he just stood there watching it all take place, beside Lilli of course. When Drew took off his shirt, Eli thought he and Ryder were going to fight, but when Drew walked off he understood why. There were rumors about Drew and underground mixed martial cage fights. With his reputation of having post traumatic stress disorder he understood why he walked away. He should be going to make Katie feel better but he was pretty sure he wouldn't as he approached Ryder from behind. Looking down at Bianca, he didn't like that abuse as he offered her a hand up. "Listen, like you said to Drew earlier, you don't need to be physically abusive. Slow down." Eli said crossing his arms over his chest and before he knew it Drew was back and Eli back up cautiously. Drew looked Ryder in the eyes, he wasn't thrilled with the fact that he just put his hands on Bianca. He shoved Ryder. "You wanted a fight, you got one!" Drew growled, no one was going to put their hands on Bianca like that. Drew could feel it, his PTSD was kicking it and now he was mad. Brandon had been speaking to Lilli and when he saw Ryder push Bianca down he walked over, now looking at Drew's back. He decided to step in the middle to avoid conflict. "Come on guys, really Drew you have something you should be doing with your girlfriend. Bianca you should mind your business but Ryder you put your hands on my best friend again your going to have some issues with someone besides Drew." Brandon said looking him in the eyes, they played hockey together he just didn't do domestic Bianca had enough of that in her past she didn't need anymore.

[Bianca DeSousa]

When Eli offered her his hand she took it and was about to get right in Ryder's face when drew slid infront of her and she took a step back bracing herself, she'd stop Drew if she had to. Then her eyes fell on Brandon and she smiled at his defensive words. She could tell Ryder was not pleased that so many had hopped to her defense and at that moment she saw what was about to happen. Ryder clenched his fist and lifted it about to belt whoever stood infront of him and she realized it was Brandon at this point. Bianca shoved Brandon out of the way and when she felt the impact against her eyes she sucked her teeth in and it had stunned her for a moment but before Drew could act again, Bianca put her hand on Drew's chest,"Back away Drew...Back away its not worth it,' she said as she stood between the boys now. Her eyes drifted back and fourth between them as her right eye throbbed and Ryder looked abit shocked himself. He had hit her...he never hit a girl other than Lilli in his life and the shock made him step back as he watched Bianca take things quite calmly, though he could tell in her eyes she wanted to kill him, she was more concerned about everyone elses safety. Ryder grabbed his backpack off the floor and turned walking away, he was in too much shock at what had just happened and now he had a lot of thinking to do. Bianca watched as Ryder walked away and she turned fully to Drew as she touched his cheek and made him look at her,"Hey, breathe, I'm ok,"

[/color] she assured him.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew watched as Brandon stepped in between them and he watched Bianca pull him away and get hit. Drew felt himself start to shake and he was now being held back? He watched Ryder walk away and he tried to go after him but Bianca was in his way. Brandon was in disbelief that Bianca got punched and he shove Bianca out of the way looking at Drew. "This, this right here is all your fault, your cheating your your break up everything!" Brandon said looking up at Drew then he looked at Bianca, he was furious. Brandon looked at his feet and shook his head listening to Bianca say she was okay. "Your okay, okay after the other night when you were miserable and now your physically hurt and your blind!" Brandon said he was discussed looking back at Drew. "You have issues serious issues." Brandon said as he turned his back to them and walked away before he said more. He was hurt by Bianca because of Drew, and Drew just knew how to make everything seem like he was cut out to be this great person. Drew listened to Brandon and he looked down ashamed, ashamed he hurt Katie, and now Bianca was getting hurt because of him. He looked at Bianca and traced her eye with his finger tips lightly and shook his head, he was still shaking the bottled anger was not setting with him so well. Drew turned around and walked away, going into the boys bathroom washing his face. After pacing a bit he decided he'd leave school and when he did he saw Katie on the front stairs. She had been crying but he just kept going walking away from it all he couldn't help it though. He was good at this.

[Bianca DeSousa]

Bianca listened to Brandon scold Drew and then her and she gave a confused look as he walked away and she flinched and winced slightly when Drew touched her eye. She looked at him for a moment, her own mind racing and jumbled now...Brandon had a point, but she couldn't pull herself from Drew no matter how bad things got. She watched Drew storm into the bathroom now and that was when she looked over to Eli and gave a slight nod to him before she turned and walked down the hall, she'd skip class and if the probation officer got on her about it and about her now black eye, she'd take the punishment. She sighed as she made it outside and she headed right for her car. She unlocked the door and got inside just sitting there as she shook her head in her thoughts now, what the hell was wrong with the world these days? She debated on leaving but for now she'd stay right here in her parking space, safe in her car.

Adam had turned the corner and witnessed the last half of the situation when Bianca had got belted in the face and when he saw Drew go for the bathroom, he waited outside of it and as soon as his brother left the bathroom, Adam followed in pursuit,"Drew..." he said in concern as he looked at Katie as they passed her, he felt kind of bad now...he didn't know why but he did. He walked infront of Drew now and stopped right infront of him,"Drew stop!"

[/color] he said, running wasn't a good option right now, Adam could see this, running was not the answer any more.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew heard Adam calling and he wanted to walk but when he was cut off he looked down at Adam. "What? Come to tell me what I did and what a horrible person I am too Ad?" Drew said he was furious with himself allowing Ryder to walk away if he just fought him in the beginning Bianca would have never got hit. Drew looked at the mail box and hit it as hard as he could scowling at the pain that he was left with. Drew crouched down holding his hand and looked up at Adam. "I should have just fought him." Drew said, but after all Ryder wasn't really the one to blame he himself was just like Brandon said. He could feel his body shaking with anxiety and now he was unsure of what to do. Drew was lost for words, lost for actions but he knew Adam would have something to say. Adam knew how to make him feel better most of the time.

[adam]

He jumped abit when drew punched the mailbox,"Hey what did the mailbox ever do to you?"

[/color] he said half joking as he sat down next to Drew on the sidewalk curb. He rested his elbows on his knees and he sighed in thought for a moment. "Tell you how horrible you are? That'd be a lie coming from my mouth..."[/color] he said in correction to his brother. He glanced up at the sky as he breathed in the air for a moment,"I honestly am not going to try and tell you that you need to do anything.... what you decide to do is your choice Drew, but I just think running isn't always the best answer to things..."[/color] he said softly before he looked at Drew and punched his shoulder playfully,"You keep running your just gonna go in circles eventually don't ya think?"[/color] he said as he took off his hat for a moment now, flipped his hair and put it back on,"Do you want to go check on katie? I can go check on Bianca,"[/color] he offered knowing part of Drew's issues were probably because he was worried one would get forgotten and left behind, that wasn't true though and he'd help make it that way.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew halfly smiled at Adam's comment about the mailbox and when Adam spoke he knew his brother was right. Drew chewed the inside of his cheek in thought for a moment. Katie wasn't going to be thrilled he was trying to care for her nut he knew it was the right thing to do. "Yeah I'll check on Katie, check on Bianca." Drew mumbled coming out of this thought. He got to his feet and walked over to the stairs. He was cautious saw he walked over sitting down beside her. Seeing her cry, broke him inside but he wasn't quite sure where his mind set was. Drew cleared his throat, making his presence aware and when she looked up he reached over wiping the tears from her cheeks like he had in the past. He knew she didn't want to hear sorry, and she didn't want to hear it from him so he wouldn't say it. "You going to be alright Katie?" Drew managed to say ruffling his own hair and then scratching the back of his neck, he just didn't know what else he could do for her even though he knew the answer to his own question. Drew felt really bad and for the first time, he saw himself as completely wrong in this whole situation.