These are the days...[Xander]

[Bradley McCall]

All morning he spent his day looking up at the ceiling consumed in his own thoughts. It was like a nothing made sense and he felt alone. Brad had done a number of things wrong, he had let Kaleb down and broke his promises. Then he got Xander involved in something he shouldn't have. Brad let himself grow feelings for Xander and let himself get close and now it felt like he lost them both. Brad could feel his stomach turning with every thought, he had heard his phone vibrating but he wouldn't answer them nor look at them. It was Saturday and he hadn't made plans nearly half the day had gone by and if his mother didn't walk into his room and tell him he needed to get out of bed he wouldn't have. Bradley forced himself out of bed hopping into the shower though he was depressed he wouldn't go without good hygiene. After he was done he got out and walked to his room. Brad saw no need in putting on anything special. He just put on his black and orange plaid pj pants and a black hoodie. Brad grabbed his cell phone and put on his black Converse sneakers shoved his hands into the pocket of his hoodie. He walked down the stairs and outside, he certainly was dressed for the Halloween season. Brad walked to the little park right by his house he found a good spot on the glass and laid down looking up at the sky. He remained silent taking out his cell phone looking through his texts. None from Kaleb yet he didn't care the I hate you meant enough for him to stay away for now. Brad text Xander telling him where he was. He was concerned if Xander had heard about the break up yet how could he not have, it was all over face range. But what he was most concerned with was weather Xander was alright. What was on his mind and how could he make him better if he was hurt. Brad had issues when it came to people he cared about, he'd put them first and didn't consider himself. He knew he was depressed so he didn't have to think more on the topic.

[Xander Leo Connolley]

He had been alright, though his eye was still bruised and his lip had to get a few stitches he was alright. He had gone home last night unable to sleep he had simply paced his room until Ana had climbed into his window. She had been the one to point out to him everything about face range and Brad and Kaleb not being an item any more,"I think I did enough damage Ana, I told you this was all wrong" he had told her but she had left and the rest of the night he lie in bed praying to god that Brad was alright. He slept in finally when slept did overcome him until his cellphone went off and he reached drowsily for it. he saw it was a text from Brad, finally, he thought as he got up and pulled on his jeans and a black and red plaid button up. He ruffled his hair and rushed outside and down the street. When he saw the boy lying in the grass he jogged over and he plopped down in a cross legged position by the boy's head before he lifted Brad's head and placed it in his lap,"Brad, I'm so sorry" he felt like this was all his fault. He looked away as he ran his fingers through the boy's hair. He sighed softly, his heart pounding in his nervous and guilty state,"I didn't mean to...I am so sorry" he said his saddened eyes finally looking down into Brad's.

[Bradley McCall]

The leaves changing was sort of beautiful in its own way he didn't understand why he got depressed during such a beautiful time of year. The window blew them and he didn't expect a text from Xander back, he had probably screwed up everything. The sound of crunching leaves caught his attention and though his eyes may have been puffy from crying he forced a smile. His head was lifted and he nuzzled a little listening to Xander. Bradley chewed the inside of his cheek closing his eyes. "Sorry for what, sticking up for what you care about? Don't say sorry please." Brad said, he didn't want to hear that right now. "That should have been done a long time ago, not by you. By me in all honesty I am the one who should be sorry for getting you involved." Brad admitted, his eyes were still closed and he peeked up at Xander and when ever that boy has that sad look he couldn't help but to melt. Brad looked at the stitches in Xander's lip and forced himself to sit up. He crawled into Xander's lap and looked closely and then he looked down. "I could have lied and said the bruises were from something else..." Brad whispered insecure about himself being honest with Xander. The thing was he trusted him from the start. The feelings came and then the fight now what was next. Brad looked back into Xander's eyes. "You don't..hate..me do you?" Brad asked. Everything he thought to be love was used as hate so he had to make sure his mind wasn't playing games on him.

[Xander Leo Connolley]

He listened to Brad and when the boy crawled up into his lap and asked him if he was mad, Xander shook his head,"I'm not mad, why would I be mad?" he asked as he winced when his eyes narrowed. He disregarded the tinge of pain in his black eye and rested his forehead against Bradley's. "I could never hate you either Brad...please don't ever think I would hate you" he whispered as he reached up running the fingers of one hand through the boy's hair. He took in a breath catching the boy's scent in his nose and it soothed him and made him smile. "Brad...are you going to be alright?" he asked, he didn't like how Bradley was beating himself up,"No, you shouldn't have lied, I'm glad you were honest, now you won't ever get hurt by him again, not with me around," he swore as he looked deep into the boy's eyes.

[Bradley McCall]

Brad let his eyes meet Xander's and he tilted his head listening. He wasn't sure why the boy would have been mad maybe it was because if the fact he got into a fight and got booboos. Brad wouldn't say that out loud it sounded childish. Was he going to be alright? Brad looked away for a moment then looked up at the leaves, he thought deep and long about his answer and then looked back to Xander. "I'll be fine." Brad said with a half smile, it was sort of fake but when Xander ran his fingers though his hair and got comfy in Xander's lap and rested his face in Xander's neck. "I have never worked so hard to be strong and to get an emotion like hate from someone you stayed loyal to hurt." Brad said, he had to opened up a little, it would eat at him otherwise. "I am no armature to being hurt Xander you must not forget that. I needed that out of my life to progress. Though I do care and always will I need to fix myself." Brad admitted, he had been pushed to the point where he just wanted things to end. Not how they did but same result right? Brad wrapped his arms around Xander's neck, he knew he meant something to the boy yet he wasn't really to just jump into a relationship where Xander would feel like his rebound. This boy was way too special and important to him to do such a thing. Brad locked eyes with Xander and smiled nodding, he trusted he wouldn't get hurt again. "I don't think we will have to be dealing with that anytime soon. Yet I trust you when you get all protective like that." Brad teased being a little flirty running his finger up and down Xander's back. "I missed you...I was all alone without ya." Brad admitted nodding, even with Xander's booboos he was still the cutest boy in the world.

[Xander Leo Connolley]

He leaned forward and he burried his face against Brad's neck letting the boy run his fingers along his back. He breathed against Brad's neck and he smiled,"I missed you too, I was worried" he admitted as he let out a soft sigh. He ran his own fingertips along the boy's back and he thought for a long moment,"We should do something fun together, something that has nothing to do with the musical, just us" he said as he thought about what they could do. "There's a carnival in town I think, we can go get you dressed more appropriate, I can grab my car and we can have a night out, just you, me and that smile of yours please?" he asked as he pulled his face from Brad's neck and he looked into the boy's eyes and smiled.

[Bradley McCall]

Bradley smiled when Xander had said he was worried, he wasn't in the best of mind sets last night yet he didn't do anything stupid. Though he could think and his thoughts could produce actions sometimes this wasn't one of those occasions. "Aww, so you do care." Brad teased playfully shoving Xander. He got to his feel and looked down at his pj pants. "Hater, you don't like my Halloween spirit jammies?" Brad commented, he loved being in jammies. "Fine we'll go to my house, I'll get dressed in something less relaxing and then we'll go to your house. Then I get to see your room." Brad said nodding agreeing with himself. He slide his hand and Xander's and walked to his house. "That little Purto Rican woman, that's my mother watch your cheeks." Brad warned walking in the house his mother greeting he and Xander, Brad avoiding the whole meeting his mother thing and walked up stairs with Xander's hand in his. It was a little too soon for that he thought in his head. It was weird how he was so depressed earlier and Xander actually wanting to go out side of the musical and hang out pushed those feelings away. Brad went through his dresser and pulled out a pair of dark gray skinny jeans and stripped real fast putting them on. He removed his hoodie and put on a t-shirt then put his hoodie on over it. Brad put his fingers through his thumb holes and looked in the mirror combing his hair. Brad looked at his nose, it was a little swollen from where Kaleb hit him, yet it wasn't as bad as Kaleb looked after Xander and he fought yesterday Brad giggled to himself in his own thoughts. Then put on some chap-stick and looked to Xander. "I'm ready." Brad said stepping into his skateboard sneakers. He was never the one to dress bright, yet he wasn't emo like Eli. Brad walked down the stairs and saw his mother taking Xander's hand. "This is my friend Xander, I'm going out to the carnival with him." Brad said, his mother taking Xander's hand and greeting the boy. She gave Brad some cash and to his surprise said nothing about a curfew. Brad lead Xander outside and walked on the sidewalk. "So you lead the way to your house." Brad said following Xander, he intertwined his fingers with Xander's and looked up at him. "So you know, I'm like terrified of anything that goes too fast, too high or upside down." Brad said eliminating most rides, he hadn't really been on an amusement ride since he was 9. "You know if you do get me to go on something you better hold my hand, and reassure me I am not going to die." Brad said trying to make conversation for the walk.

[Xander Leo Connolley]

"I'm not a hater, just think you'd wanna be in something more versatile" he said before he was being pulled to his feet and he walked along side him listening to his fears,"That's ok I don't really do anything like that, I can handle a few roller coasters but nothing extreme, I like water rides and the..um carousel" he said as he blushed lightly having said one of the most childish rides. When they entered the house, Xander waved to Brad's mother and followed him upstairs watching him change for a moment. He grinned,"So cute," he said with his big grin. When Brad was all ready to go he followed him downstairs and as they walked outside now he smiled. "I'll protect you baby" he swore and when they reached his house he wasn't surprised to find no one home so he led Bradley upstairs and showed him the piano room before he took him into his bedroom. "Casa Xander" he said as he let the boy look around at the guitars and the drumset and all the little knick knacks he had scattered all over his room. He grabbed his car keys and his leather jacket before he grinne,"Actually, car or do you want to ride in style?" he asked grabbing his second pair of keys and he dragged Brad downstairs to the garage, he flicked the lights on and grinned pointing to the blue and black suzuki crotch rocket. "You wanna?" he asked.

[Bradley McCall]

It was a good thing that he and Xander didn't liked anthing too extreme and when Xander vowed protection he looked up at him and the big his bottom lip and looked down shyly. "So I'm baby now?" Brad said watching his feet while he walked a for a bit when they arrived at Xander's house he walked in looking around, he smiled following Xander to his room and he looked around at all of Xander's instruments. He smile looking around like a kid in a toy store full of amazement. "It screams Xander I love it." Brad admiited with a smile. When Xander talked about style he smirked and questioningly raised his eyebrow he followed and looked at the motorcycle."You want me to get...on that?" Brad said wide eyed, he trusted Xander but this was a little more extreme, even more then a roller coaster. Brad circled the bike a couple times trying to get the idea of it. He had never been on something motorized like this. Brad gulped and nodded. "Well, you only live once right..?" Brad questioned and when handed a helmet he put it on making sure it was secure. This was intense Brad thought to himself and he got on the bike behind Xander putting his feet on the back pegs. Brad leaned forward and wrapped his arms around Xander's waist. "Oh my Jesus the things I do for you." Brad said tightening his grip. In his mind he was terrified yet extremely excited, this would be a day to remember.

[Xander Leo Connolley]

Xander eyed Bradley and nodded he chuckled,"I promise I'll drive safe" he said handing the boy the helmet before he mounted the bike and he put on his own helmet. He waited for Bradley to be situated and he peeled out of the garage at a decent speed. He loved the way Bradley held him tight as if he were going to fall if he let go. Xander chuckled lightly to himself rounding a few sharp corners and picking up the speed before he noticed Brad's grip get tighter around him. He finally pulled into the parking lot of the fair grounds and he cut the engine as he pulled off his helmet and shook his hair,"You can let go now baby" he sighed as he pried Brad's arms from around his waist before he got off the bike and he took Brad's helmet from him. He took Brad by the hand now and walked with him toward the gates,"You alright?" he asked softly.

[Bradley McCall]

The feeling of the bike moving caused him to jump a little. Brad closed his eyes and he felt the motorcycle peel out of the drive way. The speed of the bike made him a little nervous and he felt a little nauseous when he opened his eyes and looked at the ground. Brad held on to Xander a little tighter and he felt himself a little shaken up from the while ride. Finally it was over and he looked over at Xander wide eyed, his body shook a little and his jaw was dropped. When Xander helped him off he walked looking up at him. "You said safe, that was scary and..surprisingly, I enjoyed it!" Brad admitted squeezing Xander's hand a little tighter. When they arrived at the gate and got their wrist bands he walked in looking around. "The carouse is right there." Brad point taking Xander hand and lead him to the ride getting in life. After waiting he stepped up and picked a black horse. "I miss horse back riding." Brad admitted he wasn't wure if Xander knew where he was from. "I'm from Texas originally, there's a lot of horses down there." Brad said as the ride started the the music started playing and the horses went up and down. This was too cute. Brad took out his cell phone and took a picture of Xander. "Need to have memories." Brad said and when the ride was over he got off and walked with Xander looking around. "Pick one, anyone I'm feeling daring." Brad said putting his arm around Xander's waist leaning into him while they walked to the next attraction.

[Xander Leo Connolley]

He followed Brad to the carousel and he picked a unicorn just for the hell of it. He smiled when Brad took the picture, he took his phone and took a picture of Brad in return. When the ride was over and Brad asked him what to do next he chewed the inside of his cheek. "Well are you hungry?" he asked not really up for a roller coaster or anything yet. He dragged him toward the concessions area and he pointed at the menu,"Funnel cake and nachos? Sound good to you?" he asked not sure what the boy wanted,"Anything you want baby its on me" he said as they reached the window. He pursed his lips and he ordered a soda and funnel cake and nachos and waited to see if Brad wanted something else or if he wanted to share. He loved this so far, maybe next he'd win Brad a stuffed animal or something.

[Bradley McCall]

Brad really hadn't eating much in the last two days so he figured he could eat with Xander. When he got to the stand he looked at Xander. "That sounds good but we must have salty french fries too. Guilty pleasure." Brad admitted, he felt bad letting Xander pay for it all but the boy did offer right? Brad filled one of the little side cups with ketchup waiting for all the food to be cooked. Once they got their food he walked over to one of the little benches and sat down. Brad smiled looking around at all the lights, this was really beautiful and he was having fun for the first time in a while. "Thank you." Brad said, he wasn't just thanking Xander for the food, he was thanking him for everything yet he thought that was self explanatory. Brad eat a couple fries and offered Xander some, he ate a bit of the funnel cake wiping the powder off his nose. "You like messy food huh?" Brad asked he kicked his feet back and forth under the bench and allowed his eyes to lock with the ferris wheel. It was so high, yet he never understood why they called it... "Hey Xander, isn't it questionable how people call the ferris wheel the gentlest ride in the park when it looks the scariest?" Brad wondered he hadn't given much thought about the roller coasters yet but he was sure they were more scary then the ferris wheel. Brad turned to face Xander and grinned. "I'm having so much fun." He admitted leaning his head on Xander's shoulder when the food was done he trashed the left over items and walked beside Xander noticing he was looking at the games. The stuffed animals were cute. "You want to win one?" Brad asked cocking his head.

[Xander Leo Connolley]

As they ate he grinned watching Brad,"Messy foods are always the best" he said with a dimpled smile. He ate quick though and he stole a few of Brad's fries. When they were finished eating Xander glanced up and nodded at Brad's question,"Yeah i wanna win you a teddy bear so you'll always remember this night" he said as he took the boy's hand and dragged him toward the water squirt gun games. he paid the game runner and sat down when the game started he grinned and when he won he picked out a black teddy bear with a blue bow for Bradley. He handed it to the boy and smiled,"What ya gonna name him?"

[/color] he asked as they walked along the stands now and he reached down and slyly grabbed Bradley's hand lacing their fingers.[/blockquote][/blockquote]

[Bradley McCall]

Bradley smiled and nodded, it was true the messiest things were the best. Brad scrunched his nose at Xander's dimples, he really never looked much at Xander's smile to noise them, he poked one and giggled walked to the game of Xander's choice. Brad watched Xander play, and he was excited he rocked back and forth from his toes to his heels and at the little black teddy bear he grinned and thought of what to name him. A name was something special yet Brad was weird with names so he just came out. "Cornelius, you think it suits him? I do." Brad explained with a smile taking the small bear and hugging him. "Even without Cornelius, I'd remember tonight Xander. This night has been so fun and it isn't even over yet." Brad explained looking around, his green eyes full of amazement from all the lights and people walking around. The music was perfect, everything about it. Brad looked down and ran the tip of his toe on the ground. "Your getting used to that baby word. Am I your baby and in what sense?" Brad asked taking Xander's hand and walking. With his other he cradled his little black bear protectively. Brad walked up to the ferris wheel. "Let's get on!" Brad said taking Xander into the line. As he waiting he had his back to Xander. Brad leaned back and took Xander's hands and put them around his own waist looking up at him with a smile. He felt wicked close to the boy right now. Once it was their turn he got in on one side and before he knew it they were going up. Brad took in a deep breath looking at the whole city. It was beautiful from this view. "Your alright?" Brad asked looking over as Xander taking his hand and rubbing it. The ride had stopped at the top.