Fear Comes&Goes-Katie

[Katie Matlin]

Katie, found herself swapping spit with Ryder and she closed her blue eyes allowing herself to be lead into the kiss. Her tongue danced with his, and she could feel her heart speeding up. She was pulled down and she looked up at him when he apologized. Katie thought for a moment and shook her head no, feeling his warm hands on her hips gave her chills and she looked deeply into his eyes and she smiled a bit. "Why are you sorry? There no need to be sorry you don't have to hold back Ryder." Katie whispered putting her hands on his muscular back, she ran her fingertips lightly up his back to his neck and pulling him into another kiss, of her own leading this time. Katie let her thoughts go blank and she could feel herself wanting him in all ways as well. She had given herself to Drew, for something that was not love. Why not when she knew Ryder cared for her, and she cared for him deeply as well. Katie kissed him til she was breathless, and unsure of how to start the whole process she trailed kisses down his jawline to his neck, kissing, and sucking a bit lightly. There was no problem, with what she was doing. Just in the back of her mind she was scared to let go, she was scared to feel used again. Something about her new boyfriend took away that fear. Katie reached over turning off the t.v. She brought her lips to his ear and whispered lightly. "What is it you want to do Ryder, How can Katie Matlin make your night perfect, besides her beautiful appearance?" She whispered a bit nibbling on his earlobe. She pulled away and looked up at him, she knew when it was alright to be sexy, and she knew when she wanted something in return, all he had to do was speak the proper words to win her heart and he'd have whatever he wished for.

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[ryder]

Ryder thought briefly before he heard her last words, he could tell that the tension of the situation was sinking in. It wasn't nearly tension though, it was more a longing or a desire that lingered in the air. He looked down into her eyes and he chewed the inside of his cheek for a moment,"I want to make this night special for you" he whispered as he reached up and pushed some stray hair from her face. He drank her in as he looked her over, from head to toe and he couldn't help but to imagine himself caught up in her. She was entrancing and he felt weak to her. He ran his hands along her sides for a moment before he allowed his fingertips to brush along the lower half of her stomach now before he brought his face to her neck and began to kiss along her neck gently as he allowed his hands to roam freely, soon enough though he couldn't help himself as he practically removed every inch of fabric that clung to her body and she now lay beneath him, exposed. He bit his bottom lip as he looked her over once again and he took off his own shirt and his shorts before looking down at himself in his boxers and he took one hand and brushed his fingertips along her stomach and he chuckled watching the goosebumps rise on her skin,"I Need You Katie" he whispered softly at a loss of words.

[Katie Matlin]

Katie found herself looking up into his eyes, and she could see the ecstasy, and he wanted to make it special for her. With those words she smiled and cocked her head allowing him to have better access to her neck and she gasped a bit at his tough, her eyes rolling into the back of her head. Thoughts rushed through her mind, and she could feel each inch of fabric taken off her petite body. When he whispered the last words her jaw dropped and she reached up and grabbed his jaw. She narrowed her eyes and could feel herself wanting to push back tears, that she refused to let fall. He needed her? The same words from Drew Torres. Katie let his jaw go and gave him a pouty look. Maybe she wasn't ready for this. "You need me? The last boy that needed me..used me and broke me. The word need is a strong word Ry." Katie whispered feeling her heart beat and though he had made her excited, she wasn't quite sure where the rest of the night would lead. Ryder needed to speak now, without his stubborn personality. Katie was unsure on what to say, unsure on what to do. She was scared deep from Drew but hearing Ryder use his words...hurt her in a way.

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