Talk About Issues~DREW

[adam]

Adam wasn't stupid and he had been upstairs the other night listening when Bianca had come to see Drew and he heard it all and it actually surprised him abit but at the same time he understood that the situation wasn't exactly an easy one. So today Adam decided he'd come home right after school, get him and Drew some ice cream for when Drew got home from practice and he'd sit his big brother down and let him vent, Adam liked to have those moments of bonding, it made him feel like Drew actually trusted his opinions and advice. He was currently in the kitchen looking at the time knowing drew should be home any minute and he began scooping cookie dough ice cream into two bowls and topped both with whipped cream, chocolate sauce and cherries. He smiled from ear to ear when he heard the front door open and he looked up,"Hey bro in here,"

[/color] he called as he put a spoon in each bowl and he sat down at the table a bowl infront of himself and one in the empty seat beside him. He tilted his head when Drew walked in and he patted the empty spot,"Ice cream sundaes, eat it and vent, I ain't stupid Bro I have that like sixth sense intuition when it comes to you and girls... its kind of crazy sometimes it scares me even, its empathetic and heart breaking bro, you should really try to clear your thoughts,"[/color] Adam tended to rambled sometimes when comparing things but he knew it was part of what made him who he was. He grinned and shoved two spoonfuls of his ice cream in his mouth and began talking with his mouthful,"So whats up?"[/color] he asked as he splattered abit of the ice cream that was in his mouth onto the table.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew didn't want to hear it, KC, Dave everyone was trying to get details on what happened with he and Bianca, but it was kissing, he didn't feel like bragging about cheating on Katie. This wasn't an Alli situation and he wasn't going to let it be one. Drew went to practice and he was the co-captain so he told coach he was going to run some laps, he made an excuse about not feeling great and he was given permission to separate himself and train alone, he did some stretching workouts trying to avoid questions and just ran away from everything. Like he didn't have to time of day to talk to his friends, his mind was so messed up, so far from what it was suppose to know. Drew ran some laps and when practice was over he grabbed his duffel bag and back pack and skipped showing with the guys in the locker room. He just went home, his walk was relaxing he could think a bit clearer now and he walked extra slow watching the groups of couples walk hand in hand and he pulled out his cell phone skimming through contacts he stopped on Bianca's name and shook his head and went down to Katie's cell phone. He let it ring slowly walking on his street. When she answer he smiled a bit and started to talk. A bit of excitement in his voice, and then he was in front of his how, he listened to how she dyed her hair, and how she was doing so much better and he walked up his front porch stairs and held the phone to his ear opening the front door to his house following Adam's voice. "Two weeks, that's amazing, Yes, yes I'm so proud of you!" Drew said rambling on holding his index finger up to Adam as he ended his call with Katie. "Yeah, I love you too, alright...Mwah. Bye." Drew said tossing his phone on the table dragging his feet over to Adam resting his head on Adam's shoulder. "Bro, I'm in too deep." Drew admitted taking the seat beside Adam taking a spoonful of ice cream, he smiled in satisfaction and made a Mmmn noise. Drew took another bite analyzing Adam's words and he sighed. "You heard, I wasn't that quite I know, hopefully Mom didn't hear but... I kissed Bianca, cheated on my girlfriend, and now am having mixed emotions about everything." Drew said ripping it off like a bandage looking at the ice cream on the table shaking his head. Drew took a few more bites of ice cream looking at Adam waiting for a response.

[adam]

Adam raised an eyebrow hearing his conversation with Katie on the phone and he made a kind of disgusted face and looked down into his ice cream bowl and when he heard the phone hit the table he was relieved and he reached up ruffling Drew's hair when his brother rested his head on his shoulder,"Mom didn't hear, she was too busy with other stuff to hear... but Drew in too deep is an under statement if you ask me, sounds like you keep digging your own grave deeper and deeper, and bro your coffin isn't gonna be that big and its called being 6 feet under for a reason, your supposed to stop diggin at the 6 foot mark..."

[/color] he grinned abit to himself but shoveled more ice cream into his mouth and he shifted Drew off of his shoulder and looked his brother right in the eyes,"You want my honest opinion??"[/color] he knew the answer already, of course Drew wanted an honest opinion and Adam swallowed his mouthful before he got to his feet walking over to the sink and rinsing his dish before turning back to face Drew and folding his arms over his chest,"Without thinking, without contemplating, we're gonna play a game you ready?"[/color] Adam said and without Drew giving him an answer he started the game,"First girl that pops into your head blurt it out now,"[/color] Adam said pointing to Drew, he was going to prove his point here and now.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew shook his head and forced out a laugh. "Yeah soon enough my shovel head is going to break and I'll be stuck on a creaky ladder and the ground trying not to be stuck where I'm digging forever." Drew said and when Adam made his grave comment and he ate some more pushing his bowl away milk never sat well with his stomach, Drew stood up and walked to the sink pouring the rest of his ice cream down the garbage disposable and ran water after it. When Adam suggested a game he crossed his arms over his chest and cocked his head narrowing his eyes at his brother. "Game, you want a name?" Drew said getting himself worked up, Adam didn't know what he was talking about and it fustrated him and he didn't mean to but it was coming out. "Adam, you think its a game that I can just say, Katie, Bianca, Alli, Fiona and its just there and that's my heart?" Drew ruffed his hair and took off his shirt walking right up to Adam as he looked down at him. "You wouldn't know how this feels, because you crush on hopeless people that break you constantly diss you because of what you were born. You know what I think, I think your game, is stupid and you don't get me nor my situation. So get into your own relationship before you base judgments on mine!" Drew said with a straight face, his top lip curled at his harsh words and he looked down a bit before spinning around walking down the stairs to the basement. He taped up his fingers and walked over to the punching bag. 'How can you be so harsh to someone who was trying to help you?' Drew asked himself as he started to box at the punching bag. He hit hard and fearless, getting himself all worked up. Katie taught him how to control his anger, but now it was coming out worst then before.

[adam]

He just stood there watching Drew and when his brother got right in his face, he kept his arms folded over his chest and he listened he took each and every blow right below the belt and to the heart and he looked down now as Drew got deeper and deeper into harsh territory. He shoved Drew now and got into Drew's face back and he took off his hat and threw it to the floor and he took off his shirt not giving a rats ass about the bandaging as he shoved Drew again,"Because of What I was born? I'm a human being Drew, A fucking Human being! Not a Thing or a what!"

[/color] Adam yelled as his eyes got teary and he shoved Drew for a third time building Drew's anger inside, he knew it but now he was hurt and he scowled as the tears ran down his cheeks,"Hopeless...you think I'm hopeless, look at yourself before coming at me like that when i was trying to help," he said as he bent down and picked up his hat and shirt and he stormed upstairs hearing Drew storm down to the basement. Adam slammed the door to his room and he tossed the shirt and hat on the floor and went into the bathroom unwrapping his chest as he looked down at the female torso he had and he shook his head allowing the tears to fall down his cheeks more now, how could he say that to him? How could he make him feel like the bullies at school did? Adam stared at himself, well Gracie's body in the mirror and it tore away at him on the inside as he turned and he punched the wall in anger and he slid into a seated position against the bathroom door now, shirtless and crying and half contemplating Gracie's mindset on how to handle being hurt.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew had let Adam put his hands on him, and he contemplated if Adam wanted to be a dude why not hit him back and it took every bit of patients he had not to snap and this also blew his mind. Adam didn't know, and he knew Adam wanted him to say Bianca because Adam didn't get along with Katie and now he was regreating the way he treated Adam. His brother was right, his bother whom he took beatings for was right. He wasn't a What, or a thing and now drew climbed the stairs and followed where he heard the crying. Drew causiously opened the door and he saw Adam, well his female side and he walked right up to him ignoring the fact that his brother was shirtless. "Adam, your right. Your not a thing, or a what, your my little brother and always will be, I'm sorry." Drew said bending down putting his hands on Adam's shoulders looking his brother in the eyes, and he didn't want to cry but he felt his nose flare and water a bit and he sniffed. "I just can't let anyone in, and I can't give answers. I don't know what to do and games and opinions don't matter. I love them both, Bianca in a way knows me better and accepts me but Katie changed me for the better, taught me to control what I did to you down stairs, she is working to get out to come see me and make me happy." Drew said wiping away Adam's tears, he didn't let his eyes slip down once, and he'd treat his brother better now, he remembered getting jumped by Fitz and his friend for Adam and he'd do it all again. "Working to make me happy, But I won't be, and when she finds out she's going to want to make me miserable, and Bianca changed for herself even if she says its for me, she knows she needs to do what she's doing to stay out of jail. I can't do this Adam." Drew said spilling it all out as he should have in the first place but maybe his comments needed to be said, and maybe he needed to think about how to say what he wanted to before he just spilled and now it was getting emotional and he could over come it with, anger and blame himself for it all. But didn't he do enough of that. "Maybe I shouldn't see either of them, and move on, let them move on.." Drew mumbled ruffling his own hair looking at Adam wiping his tears one more time.

[adam]

Adam had grabbed a lighter from inside his pants pocket and was staring at it lighting it letting the metal around it heat up and he was going to hurt himself he wanted to so bad because it was what Gracie would have done, why not? But he was being shoved out of the way by the door and he scooted over sitting against the wall and dropped the lighter on the floor looking at Drew and glaring abit but as Drew spilled out his heart, Adam looked at him through his blurry vision and he wiped his own tears and he pulled Drew to sit beside him as he grabbed a towel and wrapped it around his chest. The last part of his brother's words concerned him and he shifted and sat right infront of Drew now, he knew that wouldn't work, he knew then that all three of them would be miserable and no one would move on, the key to moving on was knowing that the person you were moving on from, was happy somehow somewhere some way. He sighed and looked down ruffling his own hair as he tried to think long and hard,"No, thats not the answer to it either Drew... its not whether to let them both go or to keep them both around, the answer is somewhere and you'll find it, it'll come to you in time and maybe if the time seems right maybe letting them both go would be a good idea down the line somewhere, but right now? Did you see Bianca today? You wanna know what I saw her doing before you got to school? I mean c'mon Drew, she's miserable, you would be ten times more miserable just giving up on it all and Katie well... if she's doing so great then she could manage and yeah she'd be upset too but who knows... Drew it'll all fall into place in due time, and maybe I was wrong for trying to force a decision out of you... when in time the decision you'll come to will be right infront of you and you'll know it when the time comes, you'll do what feels right and you'll be happy,"

[/color] he said as he looked his brother in the eyes, he knew it was true too, Drew couldn't just rush into decisions, that was part of the reason he was in this mess to begin with, but if he let it all fall into place and didn't try to think so much about making a choice, sooner or later, the decision he truly wanted would come to him.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew leaned forward and grabbed the lighter and put it into his own pocket cocking his head at Adam in disappointment. He wasn't going to get into this conversation with Adam again, his life was hectic so he fought, and Adam's was difficult so he hurt himself. Drew didn't want to bring that up, he just took away Adam's tool and if he spent the night with his brother he'd get those thoughts out of Adam's mind. Drew his his head against the wall and looked up at the ceiling letting all of Adam's words sink in, it was funny how horrible Bianca treated him and he still found a way to look at her and not Katie. Adam got shot because of Bianca but he was still there defending her, and concerned about her little pout. Drew scowled and he didn't come back he would just let it sit where Adam wanted it to, he wouldn't comment because over all he didn't trust Bianca, and he couldn't though he loved her she tended to hit a lot of 180s on him in the past and he couldn't just sit with them coming so gradually. Drew banded his head a little more and then jumped up to his feet pulling Adam up with him tossing Adam his shirt before walking into his own room. He looked around and went over to the Xbox counsel and turned it on sitting on his bed petting the spot beside him for Adam. Drew got up and stripped out of his sweat pants and put on some clean basket ball shorts walking back over to the bed handing Adam one of the controllers, he remained silent for a moment while the game loaded and then he muted the T.v and laid back looking at the ceiling. "You know, it's not just about Bianca, Adam I can see she is miserable as am I, but Katie might be doing great now but ever think that's because she thinks she is going to come out to some perfect boyfriend, and a new chance at life..." Drew said looking up at Adam, he'd play video games after he was done making points for the side Adam seemed to not see. Drew ALWAYS defended the under dog. He just couldn't see why he defended Bianca so much after all that happened, he himself almost died, and spur of the moment was his problem. Maybe he should just take it as it came and in two weeks he could... "You think I should just not over think, and keep what I'm doing with Bianca on the down low and if I want it in two weeks I can tell Katie, and she'd have to get over it?" Drew said chewing the side of his cheek in thought, he was thinking out loud but maybe Adam would help his thought train. "But Bianca said she won't do it, she wouldn't be my second...so never mind bad idea. She so fucking indecisive. " Drew mumbled annoyed closing his eyes taking in a breath trying to control the animal inside of him, that he knew he could be.

[adam]

When pulled to his feet and tossed his shirt, Adam grabbed the bandaging off the floor and wrapped himself up quickly and threw his shirt back on over his head. He walked over and sat with drew taking the controller and watching the screen and even without the sound, Adam played the game listening to Drew think outloud,"I think you should not over think and you should just do your thing, when the time comes you'll know what to do, simple as that Drew,"

[/color] he re-explained and when Drew hit the last words in his sentence Adam raised an eyebrow and shook his head abit glancing to Drew,"From what I heard the other night between you two, Bianca had made up her mind Drew, set in stone made and thought she won't be seconded to Katie, if you choose Bianca in the end, she won't be second...get it? And besides even if you took awhile to decide didn't she say she knew she wasn't your second even if you were with katie..."[/color] yup he had eaves dropped hard that night but you know what, he didn't care, he was just proving points where maybe Drew hadn't been listening to her. He could tell that Drew had always been confused about Adam's defense toward Bianca but in the same way, Adam was always confused by Drew defending Katie, so it worked both ways. Adam didn't see Bianca as the one fully at fault for his near death experience and yeah she did judge him for what he was, but at the same time she came around and fixed things here and there and a person couldn't always control the life they lived he understood that and he understood that she couldn't have fully helped what had happened to him with being shot. He shook the thoughts from his head and focused on the game abit more,"See your gonna love who your gonna love Drew and whoever it may be in the end will love you to their fullest I am sure, but you know something, you say she's indecisive, you can be too and Katie, I can't fully judge her cus I'm not her but I do know that even if she is planning on coming home and being with this oh so perfect boyfriend you are... is that what is gonna make you happy? Feeling like you are there simply because if you weren't she'd probably end up right back in rehab? I'm sorry Drew I just, I don't know and you'll figure it out I'm sure, just do what will make YOU happy, not the rest of the world, think about YOU,"[/color] he said and though he always seemed like he was on Team Bianca, in all actuality he was on Team Drew.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew listened a little, and he scratched his head rolling on his side, he felt alone when Adam spoke, and he didn't care about what Bianca had to say the other night, she broke another promise, and luckily this one didn't get him grounded. She was drunk as was he, and he wouldn't have let things go that far sober. That's what his mind wanted to believe but his heart knew different. Drew was stressed, like overly his mind jumbled and he wanted to defend Katie, but Adam brought up a point, no one saw what he saw in Katie and this bothered him. Drew introduced Katie to his mother, this was important. He hid Bianca, and his mother found out not at his free will. Didn't that seem just a bit wrong to anyone. Even if his mother was starting to like Bianca this didn't mean she didn't like Katie and now it was a cluster fuck of thoughts. "Adam I can't stop thinking." Drew explained he blew out all the air in his chest and held his breath. He'd let himself have a head rush, and then he'd not be thinking anymore. Drew held it as long as he could and then let it out, his vision was a little shaken but now he was clear of mind. Drew got up out of bed swinging at the air, aggressively, like he did when he couldn't do anything else. When he felt helpless he fought whatever. "I'm going out." Drew said walking over to his dresser pulling out a pair of sweat pants, and a t-shirt. He tossed on his shirt and sweats and grabbed socks putting them on his feet. He wouldn't care, he needed away from this intense talk. Drew got his sneakers on and walked right out of his room flying down the stairs so carelessly he almost fell. He walked out of the sound and started to walk down the street, ignoring his surroundings.

[adam]

He paused the game and looked at Drew watching him grow frustrated at himself and when Drew got up and began getting dressed, Adam followed him,"And where exactly are you gonna go Drew?"

[/color] he asked but Drew took off down the stairs and he heard the stumble but he quickly found his shoes and he rushed out the door after his brother. He lost sight of him though as he shoved his hands in the pockets of his jacket he had thrown on now and he looked around the dimly lit night streets watching his own back, never trusting people much any more. He could see Drew now way up ahead down the street and he was going to go run to catch up but then he heard footsteps behind him and he looked over his shoulder seeing the kid he had punched in the face from math class but the kid wasn't alone this time. Adam picked up his pace in his step and was about to run when he was grabbed around the waist and he went to scream,"DRE..."[/color] his mouth covered as he was pulled down the street abit toward a park not far from their house and when the boy who had grabbed him let him go Adam found himself surrounded by a group of about 3 boys that were definately abit bigger than him. Adam shoved the kid he had punched in class and got in his face now,"What you can't fight your own battles?"[/color] he said but as soon as he opened his mouth the two other boys grabbed him and held him back while the kid he had punched in the face began wailing on him. Adam fought trying to get the two boys off of him but he couldn't and he took each and every blow with a whimper as he tried to get loose. He looked up at the sound of rushing footsteps and at first he had thought it was Drew but when the boys let him go and he fell to his knees, through his swollen eye and half conciosu state he could see Bianca and Brandon fighting off the boys and yelling at them. Bianca was up in the boys face that had been wailing on him and she had a switchblade in her hand ready for trouble. Adam watched the boys back off and rush out of the park and he was being helped to his feet by his saviors as Bianca pocketed her blade and she looked at Adam checking his eyes,"Hey you alright? Damn they got you good, what the hell are you doing out here this late?"[/color] she asked as she glanced to Brandon,"Hey Brandon hun you got drew's number right? if he ain't already on his way can you text his ass and get him over here, we gotta get him cleaned up before letting him go home like this,"[/color] she said as she sat Adam down on a bench trying to get a good look at his injuries.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Brandon ran with Bianca charging at some thugs, that seemed to be beating up on Drew Torres's little brother. He didn't know the boy quite well, but he;d always fight beside Bianca, Brandon fight and gave his all and when Bianca pulled out the knife he back up not looking at it. He heard the sound of scattering feet and he wanted to be macho and yell profanities but instead he listened to Bianca. "Yeah I got it somewhere in here." Brandon said looking through his contacts looking at the street sign texting the parks where abouts to Drew. Brandon looked down at Adam and cringed a little and then he heard foot steps coming fast spinning around making sure it wasn't those guys coming back for more. It was Drew and he was coming up fast. Drew ran and knelled down in front of Adam looking at his little brother touching Adam's cheek running his free hand though his hair standing up looking for a sign of anyone in site. Drew cocked his fist, now this was his fault as well. "Look I shouldn't have left you, and you..you should have followed me, you know its dangerous Adam. Let's just get you home safe ey'?" Drew scolded, not wanting this to be more on his list of things he did to screw up others lives. Drew squatted down and brought Adam's around around his shoulder. If he knew anything, he knew Adam wouldn't want to be carried like a bitch. Drew walked slowly, holding Adam ignoring Bianca's and her friends presence. He just wanted to get Adam inside somewhere safe. Brandon looked at Bianca and his jaw dropped and he wanted to say so much, but he knew Bianca wasn't going to go down like that.

[adam]

He winced at everyone trying to touch him and look at him and he shoved hands away from him, even Drew's and when Drew went to help him walk he shoved Drew away abit and was going to walk on his own but he heard it and he knew it was coming when he heard the clicking heels right behind them and Adam stopped right in his tracks and turned around to look at Bianca who as standing behind Drew now, her little outit of her mini skirt and lace top made Adam shake his head abit, she must've been coming home from the club with Brandon. He watched as Bianca shoved Drew from behind and then she stepped back waiting for him to turn around,"Whats wrong with you? You left your house thinking your brother wasn't going to follow you? You look upset enough anyone would follow you if you took off,"

[/color] she said scolding him. Adam sucked his teeth abit and spit out some blood on the sidewalk before he sighed and he stepped between Drew and Bianca and he looked the girl right in the eyes,"Just back up B ok? I went after him for a good reason and your not going to make things better for yourself snapping at him like that,"[/color] he said defensively of his big brother. He watched Bianca look at him incredulously and he ruffled his own hair for a moment before glancing down at his feet,"Look ok its heart breaking I get it, we get it, he gets it, alright do you really think..."[/color] Adam reached over grabbing Drew's chin and squishing Drew's cheeks showing Bianca Drew's face,"That he isn't hurting too? C'mon now Bianca, just let it go... I'm not saying let your feelings go but I'm saying for the sake of sanity not just yours and his but everyone around you, just drop it, what happens happens alright and if he wants to be with you he will, but don't come up and push him around because your hurt ok?"[/color] he was done, he was tired and he was sick of defending sides at this point as he watched Bianca look down and rub her right arm with her left hand and Adam reached for her hand prying it from her arm and placed her hand in Brandon's,"Go home, sleep on things, don't worry about me I have my big brother to mend me, thank you for the rescue but this mission is hereby accomplished so scoot,"[/color] he said and he watched Bianca reluctantly squeeze Brandon's hand and turn and head toward her house. Adam looked to Drew now and shoved him playfully,"C'mon I think my face could use some frozen mixed veggies what do ya think?"[/color] he said grinning and he walked toward the house feeling achy as he groaned.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew felt himself being shoved forward and if he didn't hear those heels he would have turned around and beat the living shit out of anyone who dare try to stop him when he was attending to his bother. Drew was about to yell, and he growled instead letting Adam talk he turned around and ran his fingers through his hair and his jaw dropped when he wasn't facing anyone at Adam's words and he held back a smile, and until now he thought Adam was for Bianca but now he knew the truth and he turned around letting Adam take his hand and he looked down sympathizing for himself a bit now, and he hadn't been doing that before, simply blaming himself wasn't helping and that's what was setting him off, getting him angry most. Drew watched Bianca scurry off with Brandon and he pulled Adam's arm over his shoulder. "This goes without saying, but thank you, and yes, we're going to need the peas and the string beans between your ribs and your face." Drew said putting a little pout on his lip trying to bring humor to the situation. Drew was still a little angry as he walked Adam up the stairs and let him sit in the kitchen for a moment grabbing the veggies, he saw the head lights and panicked. "Mom!" Drew said grabbed Adam and getting him up stairs as quick as possible. When they got up stairs he brought Adam into his room and locked the door. Drew set Adam on the bed and handed him the veggies. He put the other bag on Adam's ribs. "I'll handle em at school, no doubt you'll point them out to me right?" Drew said he could use a fight, even if Adam didn't tell him he was sure he'd handle it or at least some of it, he could tell this wasn't the work of one person. Drew dimmed the lights. "You take the bed, I'll sleep on the floor." Drew offered stripping down to his boxers as he went into his closet grabbing a spare pillow sheet and blanket. He set up on the floor and stretched a bit sitting on the floor, then he laid back looking at the ceiling. "Adam, you didn't have to do that with Bianca earlier, I'm never going to hear the end of it." Drew said laughing a bit to himself.

[adam]

He accepted the help of walking this time and when they got hom he sat down but it didn't last long it was almost immediately after he sat down that he was being pulled upstairs and he winced and sucked his teeth here and there but finally being settled on Drew's bed, he lay back and helped situate the frozen foods where they needed to be, but Adam also knew that their mother was very bright, and if she went into the freezer for anything, she'd question the whereabouts of her vegetables the thought made Adam chuckle and when Drew was set up on the floor, he reached over and turned the light off as he looked up at the ceiling and he sighed listening to drew talk,"I know I didn't have to, but if I hadn't it would have been world war 3 and I'm saving us all ok? I just can't stand seeing you this upset and her and whoever and if you hadn't realized just yet, you two being this way effects the people around you, I just want you happy Drew if you think Katie is the answer to happiness then so be it, if you think Bianca is then happy day, if you think your better off alone and your happy alone or you wanna find someone else then good for you, I just want you happy, so I did it to spare feelings and to keep the problem at the level its already at because it doesn't need to escalate any further,"

[/color] Adam was logical in many ways, he didn't do much of anything without reason even if his reasonings weren't always for the bigger picture, but in this case his logic was for the best reason of all, his brother's happiness. He put his hands behind his head and he could hear their mom walking to her room, but by the sound she had made coming in, he knew she knew her vegetables were gone and he'd have some explaining to do in the morning about the lovely shiner on his right eye and the possible bruising of his ribcage and stomach area. He closed his eyes in thought," Drew can I ask you something?"[/color] he asked seeing as they were having such a wonderful night of bonding.[/center]