All Falls Down(Bianca)

[Drew Torres]

It felt like it was only yesterday he and Katie were learning tai chi in the school gym, slowly falling for one another, learning each other and then life had just changed their playing field. When he and Katie were together, yeah of course it was special, but after her whole soccer incident, the whole knee injury things flew south. If anyone knew the importance of dedication to a sport it was he himself and now he found himself in a world of pain. Not physical pain, emotional hurt the kind that breaks a person. One second his class president girlfriend was ruling the school by his side and the next she was using his ex girlfriend whom he'd always share feelings for to score drugs. Drew had morals and in his own mind he knew what he wanted. But Bianca threw him on the line of fire. She told Katie he'd stay by her side through it all and now this was where his world fell to pieces. His girlfriend in rehab, and all he could do was watch over the football field he once gave his all on, from the bleachers, the side lines. Drew ran his fingers through his hair, looking up at the sunsetting in the distance. He wasn't quite sure where his mind frame was but he felt the need to talk to someone. Just to have someone understand this lonely feeling. But after all he was jock Drew Torres, people, especially girls didn't think of him as lonely. Yet certain people that knew him well did know a different side of him. Drew ruffled his hair and walked down the bleachers looking around at the scattered sports teams, the students from Degrassi leaving each practice or club, whatever the case was. Drew sighed and kicked at the grass shoving his hands into his pockets walking to the school building. He walked the halls almost aimlessly, every now and then he'd hear a voice, or catch a ear full of the next rumor, and he couldn't help to think he was part of what people were saying. It wouldn't be the first time, he shook his head and pushed away his thoughts turning the corner to his locker. He put the code in and unlocked it looking at his locker door, he smiled at the pictures of he and Adam, and the picture of him and Dave. Then he saw a picture of him and Bianca. His face straightened out and he sighed grabbing his back pack and tossing it over one shoulder. He heard heels clicking down the hall and he close his locker and a real smile appeared on his face. He knew Bianca was changing for him, and she had come so far and tried so hard to change. What was her motive of keeping him by Katie's side. It was going to end bad after Katie found out they kissed. Drew walked toward her and looked down, standing in front of her, and though he had tried countless times to talk to her, now had to be the time. "Bianca, can I talk to you?"

[/i] Drew asked looking deep into her eyes as if he already knew the answer. He put his arm around her and started to walk. He wasn't quite sure of their destination but he had a over load on his mind.[/center][/font]

[Bianca DeSousa]

She was becoming frustrated within herself due to everything lately, she partially was beginning to believe that she may be developing anxiety but she ignored the possibility. She awoke early this morning just wanting to make it to school without bumping into trouble but it was seeming to be inevidable that trouble found her. She left her house grabbing her backpack on her way out. She headed for the school keeping her eyes open and her ears as well and when she reached the building she walked right inside feeling inside was safest. She headed for her locker and shoved her backpack into it adjusting things around in the locker and grabbing the notebook she'd need for her first class. She went through her day dragging her feet, paying attention in class as much as she could but for some reason she couldn't shake things, she couldn't help but think of how stupid she was for pushing Drew to stand by Katie, yeah she had her reasons behind it, she knew Katie had issues and she knew that she herself needed to try to make her focus on school, but now it seemed like everything was just falling apart and how could she even begin to think about school right now when all she wanted to do was sit Drew down, spill out her heart but she wasn't even sure she could do that. When school was over though, she stayed behind for dance team and after that, she told Brandon she'd meet him back at her house in an hour or so. She left the gym and went for her locker and shoved everything in it before slamming it shut and heading for the exit but it caught her eye, Drew was still here. She walked right over to him, her heels clicking against the glossy floor and when he asked if they could talk, he pretty much took the words right out of her mouth and as he put his arm around her shoulders, she felt safe, she felt comfortable and she felt as though everything were how it used to be. She walked with him at first not knowing where to go until she glanced over and saw an empty classroom, she pushed him into it and shut the door locking it behind her as she walked over and she sat on the desktop of the desk at the front of the classroom and she looked at him and patted the empty spot beside her,"Whatever you wish to talk about Drew, I'm all ears...I kind of was thinking the same thing, we need to talk... maybe nows the best time," she said softly.

[Drew Torres]

There was so much he could say, he looked into her eyes and then shook his head at the first thought that popped into his mind. He walked over and sat on the desk and ruffled his hair once more. Here it was facing him and he couldn't find the words to express what he was feeling. He already told her the night Katie went away he loved her, in result he got a 'it can wait we have went through harder things' but waiting hurt him more and he started to get a little aggressive in his mind. He got up and paced back and forth and stopped right in front of her putting his hands on either side of the desk. "Bianca why? Why did you tell her I'd stay with her? I know you were trying to spare her feelings but if that was something you were trying to prove to me...it didn't work. What about what I feel?" Drew asked as he felt a little bit lifted off his chest he roamed around the room freely and then walked back looking her dead in the eye. "Keeping me close to her, doesn't change the way I feel about you, what don't you get?" Drew said a little annoyed he walked over to the bookshelf and slid down into a seated position. He'd always give Bianca the truth, he never lied and now he felt trapped. "You set these boundaries and tied me down, and now I feel lost like if I go against what you said to her I'll lose you too." Drew said getting up as he cocked his fist and hit the white board, he was through with the games. The missing someone on the other end and he walked up to Bianca and looked into her eyes. "I love you, and no matter what you want to prioritize you can't change the way I feel." Drew admitted looking at her dead set, he just wanted her to say anything, just to reassure him it wasn't just him feeling this. He wanted her to say it was a mistake but in that was fault hope.

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[Bianca DeSousa]

She watched as he put his hands on either side of the desk and she listened to his words and they stung abit and this made it all the easier and yet all the harder at the same time. She looked down and her hair toppled into her face as she listened to his feet cross the floor with his pacing and she heard him slide to a seated position but it didn't last long because he got up once more and when he hit the white board, she didn't flinch and when he stood infront of her again she looked up and met his eyes, she listened to the last part of his words as she allowed her teeth to skim her bottom lip she waited til he had everything out of his system it seemed if even for just the moment and she finally spoke, keeping her eyes locked with his,"I set boundraries, yes and I forced you into something without considering your feelings and as much as I would love to pretend for the sake of thinking its the best thing for me to do, I can't pretend any more..." she hopped off the desk and now she was on her feet right infront of him barely a few inches seperating them. She looked down for a brief moment before glancing back up into his eyes,"I'd be foolish to push you away again, I'd be fooling myself I'd be trying to pretend that what I do to you isn't hurting me... I..Drew..." she found herself struggling with the thoughts in her head but at this point she had to think of what was best for her and not only what was best for her, what was best for the boy she loved that stood right infront of her, Katie's feelings were the furthest thing from her mind right now and without a second hesitation, Bianca grabbed Drew by the back of his neck and pulled him into a kiss, she passionately kissed him as she lie her free hand on his chest and when she became breathless she pulled away and rested her forehead on his and looked right into his eyes,"I love you Drew Torres and I'd be an idiot to let you walk away from me right now," she whispered.

[Drew Torres]

Drew listened and he crossed his arms over his chest looking down into her eyes. At first she seemed like she was going to say something that would break his spirit but when she hopped off the desk he looked right into her eyes, all cards were on the table and he raised his eyebrow at her pause. He could feel his heart regain speed and he put his arms around her and held her tight, just like he used to kissing her with passion his tongue dancing with hers and soon he was out of breath and he inhaled when she break the kiss looking down at her and he gave his charming Drew Torres smile at her words and reached up tracing his finger against her bottom lip leaning down kissing her again this time his leaded. He pulled away after a bit and walked over to the desk sitting down pulling her between his legs looking at her with all seriousness. I know you don't want to hide us from my mother anymore, I know you want this as legit as possible...but what should I do?" When ever he was with Bianca he seemed to let all his problems fade, everything that mattered so much to him just disappeared into darkness he closed his eyes and took in a breath. "I can't just walk into a rehab center and break up with Katie, and I can't exactly show everyone at school we're together, they'll think I'm as bad as I was with Alli and hate me even. You remember how I felt then?" Drew said getting himself a little worked up, it was his senior year no time to ruin his reputation with slander and rumors. He cleared his throat and looked down holding on to her showing her it was just his thoughts for now, showing her he wasn't just going to let her walk away again. He couldn't not after she finally told him what his heart ached to hear for a while. He wasn't worried about his mother finding out, as long as she knew Bianca was doing good Drew didn't think she'd mind. He leak it out to her and Adam slowly. "You know how you have changed and proved that to everyone? I don't want to be the guy that cheats on his girlfriend anymore. But I also don't want to hurt you now because I do love you Bianca."

[/i] Drew said tracing her jawline looking into her eyes, he didn't want Bianca to feel like she was a secret anymore. He wanted all cards on the table. But he could not just walk into rehab and tell Katie he was done because he loved Bianca. That would cause total chaos. Drew sighed at his inner thoughts and rested his forehead on Bianca's for now.[/center]

[Bianca DeSousa]

She smiled as he wrapped his arms around her and she felt so protected, so comfortable, this was where she belonged most and she knew it. When he spoke about his concerns, she sighed and she glanced down abit until he kissed her again with all he had and she returned it with just as much passion. When he pulled away again she listened once more her eyes never leaving him, this was not exactly what she had expected yet at the same time it didn't surprise her. When he rested his forehead on her's and he seemed to get quiet again, she reached up with one of her hands and ran her fingers through his hair as she was quiet for a moment just letting it all sink in and as she dropped her hand from his hair to the back of his neck she looked right into his eyes,"Drew its not going to be easy, it never is with us, you know that...and I understand your concerns and I know your reputation is quite important to you..."that was a good start just where to go from there was her problem as she reluctantly pulled herself away from him and she leaned her back against the desk as she rubbed her arm with her hand and she tilted her head abit,"I wish things were easier, but I know their not and you have alot more on the line here than I do at the moment... but what I do have on the line is you, and thats the most important thing in my life right now...I mean not to sound sappy and shit but its true your like the light at the end of a neverending tunnel that just illuminates all the bad things and makes them disappear, I wouldn't be who I am right now if I never met you Drew," she said as she looked right into his eyes, her own softer than they probably ever had been before. She chewed her bottom lip,"I want to be with you Drew...but its up to you how this happens and what we do,"

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[Drew Torres]

Drew hopped off the desk and stood right in front of her. His blue eyes skimmed hers and he was suddenly thinking she wasn't understanding. "Bianca I can't make that decision right this moment. That doesn't mean I love you any less, it means I can't just march into a rehab facility and say 'Hey look Katie, I'm glad your doing good but you know I love Bianca so screw all you've worked for.' Your not the only one who is changing for me. And your not the one I changed for." Drew said looking into her soft eyes, he knew Bianca understood not, how could she not? He wanted her yes, but would he just drop from someones side that worked so hard... "Bianca when you were gone, after I got jumped Katie spent time fixing me." Drew said pacing once again he looked at her. The girl never really was around for Drew Torres in ruin. He felt his inner thoughts rush and cocked his fist again getting angry. Katie once taught him how to harness this anger and make it controlled and productive. "I almost died from that Bianca, so I learned to fight, I learned mixed martial arts and fought to win. Didn't matter who I was fighting or why because every win I had showed me I could survive." Drew said looking over his shoulder at her. Being with Bianca was traumatic, he had post traumatic stress disorder, and nightmares.. "I had nightmares, horrible nightmares and Katie taught me how to cope with them, when I was heartless and broken and you were no where to be found." Drew said having mixed emotions as he walked over to the mirror and forced back tears and hiding them behind anger. He did love Katie as well, just not the Katie that was away at the moment. This didn't mean he changed his mind about loving Bianca, but she never really was around to know and see what everything did to him. "Maybe this was stupid, maybe you should go." Drew said stern as he looked out the window and his back was facing her now, trying to push away the hurt.

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[Bianca DeSousa]

She looked at him incredulously as he began to flip on her and when he walked over away from her she stormed right up behind him and grabbed him by his shoulder and turned him around before pushing him up against the wall. She looked right into his eyes as she held her hand to his chest and she scowled abit at the whole situation now,"YOU won't tell me to go, you wanna know why Drew Torres? Because YOU wanted to talk to me and you know what? This is classic...this is just all sorts of great right? One second your telling me you love me and now its this that and the other, MAKE UP YOUR MIND DREW!" she was furious but at the same time of her anger boiling, her eyes brimmed with tears that wanted to fall but she wouldn't let them, not infront of him, not when he was acting this way. She pressed her hand against his chest harder and got right in his face,"I will not be your second Drew, I will not believe your words as you throw them may way when you turn around right after and you practically take them back... do you not see what you're doing to me? Yeah I've done things ok drew, I've done things I'm not proud of I got you involved in things you didn't need to be a part of, but I also gave you a chance to walk away and you could have at any point in time, So don't sit here and play with my head and play with my heart if your not going to do something, stand by what your feelings are, Drew I can't sit and wait forever ok? I would love to wait as long as I could for you but not if you're gonna mess with my head like this...Do you love me or not? Disreguard Katie, disreguard your precious reputation for two seconds... do you really love me?"

[/color] and the tears she so desperately fought from falling now ran down her cheeks in her mixture of hurt and anger and she dropped her hand from his chest as she looked down at her feet and brought her hand to her arm rubbing it, she was weak...she was broken, and she was lost.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

The sound of familiar heels click on the floor and moved closer and now he found himself spun around and looking down at Bianca, and he felt her aggression on his chest and he looked into her eyes and listened to every word she had to say. He watched her cry and his eyes softened a bit now due to the fact he never really saw this side of her. "You know Bianca, if I could push away reality and just think about us I'd say, yes I love you, and I always will but, But that's not the reality of the situation is it? You can't live in a world where there is just Drew and Bianca, sunshine and daisies that's not life, and that's not how it works. And I'm sorry if that hurt you, and trust me it hurt me too, but that's the reality of it all." Drew said a bit harsh looking her right in the eyes admitting his love for her, but as they say love isn't enough to survive on. You needed worth ethic, friends, supporters, all this boiled down to was life and he suddenly found himself walking past her grabbing his bag off the floor and tossing it over his shoulder. He didn't give her time to catch up, he'd talk about it when he was cooled off and he could think normal but for now this was too much. He took out his phone and text Dave asking him to come pick him out outside of Degrassi. Drew felt that cold feeling once again in his chest, and he shoved his phone into his pocket and walked outside the building sitting on the front stairs awaiting to be picked up. He rest his head in his hands and ran his fingers through his hair looking up at everything that sounded like a car. Anything that would take him away from this situation. If she didn't leave when he told her to, he would himself, out of the fact that he was stubborn. He did love that girl, but he also made a point to himself in speaking with her.

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[Bianca DeSousa]

Bianca listened to him and when he walked passed her and grabbed his backpack she took a second to realize what was going on but she stormed after him as fast as she could in her heels and she scowled when she stumbled and she bent down removing her heels from her feet and she rushed out of the doors and looked at him sitting there on the steps. She walked behind him and she placed a hand on his shoulder gently and ran her fingertips along it and to the side of his neck before she pulled her hand away and she walked down the steps and came infront of him where she crouched down right between his legs and she looked up into his eyes,"Please... I don't ask like this often, but please don't run away from me..."

[/color] she whispered as she swallowed hard and she rested her hands on his knees. She chewed the inside of her cheek as she reached up with one of her hands and wiped the tears from her eyes before she looked at him fully again and she sighed,"I just... I don't know how long I can take it Drew... and I'm trying so hard to fix myself and to do good things and its working for now... but its getting harder and harder when I can't stop thinking about you and I just don't know what to do, and I understand this won't happen over night, I just... I don't want to sit here and wait for you thinking that its going to happen for you to change your mind, I don't know if I'd be able to handle that," she whispered spilling her heart out to him, she wasn't one for these sappy moments but today just seemed like she was full of them as she looked down and let her hair cover her face,"I just need to know its gonna be alright," she muttered.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew looked into her eyes and he licked his lips and closed his eyes reaching into his pocket canceling his ride from Dave. He inhaled hard and put his fingertips on her cheek and he let a couple walls had he thrown up earlier fall. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to him and held her against his heart tight and protective like he always did and then he let his eyes skim the area. Then his blue eyes traced hers. "It'll be okay, as you said we've made it through way more." Drew admitted pecking her softly then pulling away feeling uncomfortable in this area. All he needed was Marisol to see him this close with Bianca. "Your house? Pizza, salad a movie my treat?" Drew insisted not wanting this whole thing to pan out in public, he wasn't ready to face all that but as she said it would take time, and it wouldn't happen over night but for now he wanted to get away from everything, all the stress and thoughts that crossed his mind wanted to lay dormant. He just wanted to spent a night, as close friends and see where it lead them, maybe somewhere good and he'd be able to swallow everything that was being tossed his way. Drew stood up and took her hand in his holding the strap of his back pack with his free hand. He sighed and started to walk toward her how without her responding. It would be nice to spend time away from his basement where his mother always barged in ruining his hang out sessions, and intimate moments. Drew shook his head and smiled at the thought looking over at Bianca. He then looked around making sure they were not being followed out of instinct. Drew sighed and before he knew it they were standing on the sidewalk outside her house. "Unless you don't want to eat, cuddle up, hook up and fool around." Drew said with a cocky glare and then he winked. This soon faded into a laugh and he shoved her playfully. "Joking B." Drew said sarcastically wrapping his arms around her looking down into her eyes. He leaned forward kissing her forehead and smiled a bit.

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[Bianca DeSousa]

She smiled when he held her close to his chest and he pecked her and made his suggestion of what they could do now, she followed him when he pulled her to her feet and she leaned against him abit as they walked,"Sounds nice Drew we'll do that see how this goes for now..." she looked at him when he made his joke and she chuckled a little bit and shook her head shoving him playfully as she pulled out her keys and unlocked the front door,"you're just too cute Drew, now come inside before your paranoia gets the best of you," she said as she pulled him inside and she closed the door behind her not bothering to lock it, but having forgotten Brandon was supposed to come back later. She pulled Drew toward the kitchen and she let go of his hand,"Put your backpack down, get comfortable,"

[/color] she told him as she walked over to the fridge and she looked through it for a moment,"Order the pizza and stuff, do you want a soda or a beer or something?" she asked as she was tempted to drink some alcohol but she wouldn't unless he wanted to. She closed the fridge and walked over to one of the cabinets and opened it,"That or we have whiskey, vodka and tequila, pick your poison," she said as she looked over her shoulder at him awaiting a response, it was nice to be alone with him and away from Degrassi.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew followed Bianca into her house and shook his head at her paranoia comment. "Do you expect anything less, I am with you." Drew stated with a smile as he dropped his back pack and kicked off his shoes. He walked over looking in the cabinet and remembered the first time Bianca convinced him to do shrooms. He looked down and shook his head laughing a bit, it was later in the week so why not he figured. "Whiskey..?" Drew said a bit cautious as he walked over hitting the speed dial to the pizza place. 'Yeah I'll have a large cheese pizza, with a large garden salad.

[/color] He stated and gave the address. Drew looked down at the glass of brown liquor she had poured him and he looked up at her smiling. He hadn't really drink hard liquor before this should be an experience to remember. Drew picked up the glass swirling it then he sniffed it. The smell of alcohol burned his nose and he cautiously took a sip and gagged a bit choking it down. Drew looked up at Bianca with watery eyes. "I never done this, I mean sure I've have a couple beers with KC, but B you better take care of me, if I get drunk." Drew said taking another sip, this one went down a bit quicker then the other and he found the cup drained in a matter of 10 minutes. Drew heard the doorbell ring and he giggled a little getting up walking over to it looking out the glass window before opening it giving the pizza man a 50 dollar bill not waiting for the change. Drew felt a little light on his feet as he reentered the kitchen and put the pizza and salad on the table. "I gave him a nice tip, hope I made his day like you made mine." Drew said giggling a little his eyes a bit glossy now.[/center][/font]

[Bianca DeSousa]

She chuckled abit at his choice and she poured him a glass before she put the bottle on the counter and she herself took the bottle of tequila and opened it taking a drain from it straight from the bottle as he went to go pay for the pizza. She leaned against the counter when he reentered the kitchen and she smiled abit as she turned and she grabbed the pizza box and her bottle of liquor and pointed to his whiskey and the salad for him to grab as she headed for the living room. She set the pizza box on the coffee table as she plopped down on the couch and when he came over she pulled him down beside her and grabbed the bottle of whiskey from him and the salad and put it on the table too. She grabbed the clicker and turned the television on flipping through the pay per view channels,"Pick a movie boo," she said as she handed him the clicker and she chugged abit more of the tequilla. She watched him flip through the channels as she reached over and she toyed with the side of his neck before she shifted and got on her knees beside him and she rested her chin on his shoulder and brought her lips to his ear,"You know pick something good that would be good background sound cus I ain't gonna be paying attention to it,"

[/color] she said as she giggled and she pulled back and sat down properly but she put her legs across his lap and reached for the salad and took a fork taking a few bites before setting the salad back on the table,"And if you get too drunk I'll keep you here don't worry, I'm sure you could come up with something to tell your mom, that or I can have Dave come get you we'll see what happens," she mused as she took another drink of her tequilla before putting the bottle down finally and she lie down now on her side, her legs staying across his lap as she let her eyes go to the tv to see what movie he had chosen.[/center]

[Drew Torres]

Drew took her little hand and walked with her into the living room after grabbing the Whiskey off the table. He plopped down on the couch and took the remote squinting at the jumbled numbers and buttons. Drew reached for the liquor and took a sip and while she whispered in his ear her almost choked on his drink forcing it down. Drew put on a random action comedy movie and reached up grabbing a slice of pizza folding it before taking a few bites. He looked over at Bianca. "Yeah, I'll have Dave tell my mom I'm sleeping over there, I knocked after a rough practice and a big dinner." Drew said taking more bites of his pizza, he ate it down to the crust and put the crust on the side of the pizza box. Then he grabbed his cell phone and attempted to text Dave, he got a little annoyed with texting and just called him asking him for the favor. Drew smiled when Dave agreed and he hung up reaching for another slice of pizza. He ate it down to the crust and then reached for the bottle and took a big sip looking over at Bianca. "So explain to me what you are going to be paying attention to." Drew said as he separated her legs and crawled over on top of her lingering over her looking down into her eyes. He went in and kissed her neck a bit nibbling and with his free hand he ran it along her side up the side of her shirt so he could feel her warm skin. Her let his fingers trace over to her stomach and he brushed his finger tips down along her waist gently. Drew then brought his lips to hers and kissed her roughly yet passionate and when he couldn't breath he pulled away his hand still touching her waistline.

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